RemyJones: 5 Months

Eventually, I will make my way back over here for more than just month-by-month updates for Remington, but I feel like I am still in survival mode with a newborn. Someone tell me that ends! haha.

(Month 1) ( Month 2) (Month 3) (Month 4) Sleeps: 5 hours after his initial bedtime routine, and wakes up every two after that.  Eats: 3-4 oz of formula every feeding which is about 6 times a day. We still have him on the easy to digest formula, but instead of Miralax, we give him one prune juice bottle every day. He loves the juice, and now that he is on cereal, we love that it helps him poop!!  Wearing: 6 and 6-9 month onesies, size 3 diapers, and still no socks. ever. We are slowly growing out of my favorite onesies which is breaking my heart and making me buy the same ones one size up at Carters Nicknames: Remy Jones, Remy, Chunk, Brother Bear, Baby Bear, Bubs, Booger, Chomper Celebrated: His last day at Camp Nana, and his first day at daycare... more to come on that soon...  Likes: standing (supported of course), sitting up, naps on his belly, eating peaches and bananas with cereal at night, and his o-balls Dislikes: being hungry or tired... so hey! He's normal!  Photo Dump

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Life Lately

Hey there, friends! It has been quite some time since I've been here, and I miss it so much. It is so hard to find time to write now that I am back at work.  Believe me, this little corner of the internet isn't the only thing taking a hit. I took three vacation days this week (that were supposed to be used to keep Remington until we found a daycare from heaven!) and have used them to monogram, clean, and work on all things shutterfly!  Since I was last here, we've been a busy bunch.  Jackson's grandmother passed away.  It means the world to me to be able to look back on the pictures of Remington meeting her earlier this year. 

We found an absolutely wonderful daycare for Remington. We had a throw down with the daycare he was supposed to start, and found this one through many, many connections!! His other daycare pushed our start date back TWO WHOLE WEEKS! Who does that?! Remington loves being at Marcy's house. He's there with older kids, too, and even a couple of special needs kids. I love that he is so loved during the day! We had Remington's 3 month pictures done almost two months ago. They were precious and I can't believe how much he has changed in two short months! It's hard to believe we will be doing these all over again in a month or so!

Duck hunting season starts soon, and the annual duck blind drawing is this weekend.  Heaven help me, as this is our first with Remington, and I know there will be lots of days with Jackson gone in the near future.  I'm working on planning something special for Jackson's birthday... I just don't know what. I want to do something sweet with Remington, and I'm throwing around the idea of getting with our photographer for a mechanic inspired photo sesh with our sweet little. It would mean the world to Jackson to see his kiddo in his niche.   Remington has started cereal, and we hoped that it would help him sleep through the night. Alas. We are still waking up 3 times a night on a good night. It's exhausting, I just have to keep reminding myself that this won't last forever and to soak up the time that he needs me.   I've enjoyed catching upon your lives!! Thanks for being much better at this than I am! haha.   

RemyJones: 4 Months

(Month 1) ( Month 2) (Month 3)
Sleeps: 3 hours after his witching hour and bedtime routine, 2 hour stretches after that Eats: 3-4 oz of formula every feeding. He's still on the easy-to-digest formula and Miralax every few days Wearing: 6 and 6-9 month onesies, size 3 diapers, and still no socks. ever.  Nicknames: Remy Jones, Remy, Chunk, Brother Bear, Baby Bear, Bubs Celebrated: Father's Day  Likes: standing (supported of course), sitting up, naps on his belly, eating, and his o-balls Dislikes: bedtime... still. Photo Dump

RemyJones: 3 Months

I guess now that he is 4 months old I should write his 3 month update, right? 

Sleeps: 3 hours after his witching hour and bedtime routine, 2 hour stretches after thatEats: 3-4 oz of formula every feeding. We switched him from Similac Advanced to the light purple easy to digest formula, He was having problems pooping, and the switch along with Miralax is helping a ton! Wearing: 6 and 6-9 month onesies, size 3 diapers, and still no socks. ever. Nicknames: Remy Jones, Remy, Chunk, Brother Bear, Baby Bear, BubsCelebrated: Mother's Day and Mommy going back to work! Likes: His piano kick mat, eye contact, and being completely naked Dislikes: bedtime and being hungry

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Two

Two new sets of fingers and toes… two new eyes and one little nose. These are all things we were so excited for until they were no more. 

24 hours can be a lifetime and no time at all. It can contain all of the faces on the pain scales you see in the hospital and leave you completely numb. Last Wednesday we found out we were pregnant again. Hello shock of our lives. 

After Remington was born we decided not to get on any kind of birth control because of the issues we had getting pregnant the first time.  We agreed to use Natural Family Planning as our weapon of choice. I didn’t take into account that a 28 day cycle is not always going to be a 28 day cycle after having a baby. Whoops. Fast forward to June 28. I was at Target, just feeling weird. Much like when we found out we were pregnant with Remington, I bought tests, and they were burning a hole in my bag so I took one when I got back to work. Imagine my shock when that little pink line showed up ever so faintly. I texted Jackson and told him to call me immediately.  He did and I barricaded myself in a conference room where I sobbed and told him we were pregnant again.  All he could say was “hm.”. We were both in complete shock.  I’ll humbly admit that joy was not on my list of feelings. Instead I was flooded with anxiety and fear. I felt like an unmarried pregnant teenager that was going to get all of the judgment and stares. I just knew I would be getting the looks as people did the math in their head to figure out how old my baby is and how pregnant I am. I was embarrassed and felt like I let my family down by being a couple of days off on my chart.  Regardless, we were pregnant. End of story.  As the night went on, we cried, we laughed, and Jackson said something that just made it all okay.

Just because it wasn’t our plan doesn’t mean it wasn’t planned.

It hit me right between the eyes. I was so busy thinking about how much of a problem this was going to be that I couldn’t see how blessed we were. We got pregnant with no fertility anything like last time. 

Thursday morning, I woke up and took another test. I couldn’t wait to see line that was darker than Wednesdays indicating to me that there was, in fact, a healthy baby growing. There was no line. Not even one that you could squint to see.  I bought digital tests at lunch and took one only to see “Not Pregnant” show up. It didn’t make sense. I kept looking at the picture of the positive test reminding myself that I was, in fact, pregnant just yesterday.  (TMI Alert)  Friday brought blood. Lots of blood. I called my OB and she said it sounded like an early miscarriage, that it happens more often than anyone realizes.  She said that had I not been so “on the ball” and tested when I felt funny that I never would have known. She offered to check hormone levels and all, but said it wasn’t necessary and that my body would just take care of it.  She told me to stay hydrated and rested and to have a good weekend.

That was that. In 24 hours, I was pregnant and then not.  We were devastated. The baby that we worked so hard to wrap our heads around was gone. We went from terrified to elated to devastated in less than a whole week and were both just emotionally exhausted. 

I have gone through being guilty for ever thinking that I didn’t want to be pregnant again or wasn’t ready to be pregnant again. I have been down trying to find a reason why… why I felt the need to test and make myself aware… why I felt the way I did… and why we didn’t get to bring this one home like we did almost four months ago.  

As I sit here trying to catch up on Remington’s 3 month update, I can’t help but just be thankful. We are thankful for a God who weeps when His children weep. We are thankful for our healthy baby boy, and we are thankful for each other.